My parents have been married for 27 years, but I did not grow up in a household with parents experiencing a happy marriage. I loved both my parents but was a daddy's girl. My brother and dad never really had a relationship. Dad did not enjoy going on family vacations. Often it was just my mom, brother and I creating those memories.

My parents fought a lot. When company was over everything seemed perfect, and I remember dreading the moment when they would all leave because more than likely my parents would get into an argument. When I was 8, I remember sitting with my brother scared and crying becasue mom and dad were having their worst fight. I thought for sure they would divorce. When I was around 11, I found a note that my mom had written stating she was leaving us. I didnt know what to do but I showed it to dad, and they had a long talk. Mom is actually the nurturing parent with a warm heart that would never want to lose my brother and I, but I think at that moment she was so overwhelmed. I'm glad they talked it over. At 14, I remember watching my mom leave for work with tears running down her face. As she sobbed she looked me in the eye and said "I pray that you will never marry a man like your father". Talk about heartbreak as I adored my father but felt my mother's pain. I didn't want to marry a guy like him either because I saw how he emotionally abused her.

I am 24 now and single (and loving it...lol). I've dated only a few people but never really allowed myself to become attached to a guy, and I believe part of that is due to childhood experiences. That is how I relate to Because of You.


Quote:
Here's a quote from a book called "The Purpose Driven Life"

"Releasing your resentment and revealing your feelings is the FIRST step to healing."



Witty - That is a great quote and how well it applies to this situation. I've read "The Purpose Driven Life" and it really changed my way of thinking.

I echo Witty's sentiment. For those who posted to open up the way you have, i give you a hug. :hug It's the reason Kelly wanted to share BOY with us. Life is not always easy, but knowing someone else out there has experienced similar emotions gives us a ray of hope. I pray everyone can find the courage to break their own cycle and God bless! :heart