I'm from a broken home. My parents aren't legally divorced, but my mom is trying to go forward w/ making it official.unfortunetly, it gets kinda complicated, but in my mind they are already divorced, whether or not the paperwork is done. I'm one of those people that's glad my parents are separated and was actually pushing for it. My sister and i would actually beg our mom to get us all out of the situation. It was really bad. It was 4 people living in a 1 bedroom apt. We(my mom, sister, and i) would get yelled at,called names, etc. My mom even ended up sleeping on the floor in my and my sister's room. He would come in in the middle of the night screaming at her about something, waking us up and causing a huge fight. I remember sitting in my bed shaking and crying, barely able to breathe, worried that he was gonna physically hurt my mom. Many times he threatened to walk out, which was really an empty threat seeing as he doesn't have a job or really any friends or a place to go. Eventually i found myself wishing he really would leave. As much as i hated listening to the fights, i was almost scared to not listen, out of the fear, once again, that he would hurt my mom. This one time, which i didn't even remember until reading this thread and someone's comment jogged my memory, i remember standing outside, crying and shaking, in the middle of the night just to get away from the screaming. Finally, after a fire at my house, we moved into two separate places. My father is, unfortunetly still in my life, trying to make up for all the bad, even though he doesn't even realize he did anything wrong(wondering why we don't want to see him, talk to him, etc). My mom still brings him dinner sometimes and pays for his rent and food and we have to see him on days like Christmas, Easter, father's day, and his b-day(although, this yr, we got away w/ just calling). I really just wish he would stay out of my life and i could move on. But instead i have the constant reminder of how much this selfish man hurt me. I've heard this said before(not neccesarily here, but somewhere) that people miss who some one should have been(not who they were) and i think that very much applies to me. I see all these wonderful fathers and their little girls and i wish that was me, but i don't want that to be me w/ my father(if that makes any sense). As for BOY applying to me, well, there ya go! Plus even now I very much feel the lyrics even not related directly to my father.More my mom and my sister and how they have so many problems and stresses and all that that i feel like i can't really be upset cuz it wouldn't be fair to my mom to have to deal w/ my problems on top of everything else, so i pretend like everything is fine even though, so many times i just want to break down and cry(i'm forced to fake a smile a laugh everyday of my life). My mom esp. lately has been telling me all her problems and worries and money troubles and all the stuff she can't tell my sister cuz it's bad for my sister to have so many things to worry about(trust me.lol) and she's kinda leaning on me. and while i'm not really that young(i'm 18) , it's still hard for me to have all this in my head. Anyway, i don't know if any of that was coherent, but i was just putting some of my thoughts down.

:beatingheart To all of u who have been through or are going through all this or can relate to BOY and the video in some form or another....and to kelly for writing such an amazing song and sharing yourself w/ all of us so we don't feel so alone.:bughug